complete update

So it has been quite awhile since I have sat down to write a blog. So much has changed with our family in that amount of time.

We are now a family of 5, yes I said 5. We had our last and final baby in September of 2018. A We had our sweet boy. Along with We added a new fur baby to our already crazy family. 

my sweet husband is working as a welder and let's just says the pandemic didn't slow down his schedule. Who honestly knew that when it felt like the world had shut down it would up the sales for farm equipment.

I am still staying home with all the kiddos and enjoy every ounce of it. We did try and homeschool our oldest for 2 years and learned it just wasn't a great option. The two oldest are now in a co-op homeschool and love it so so much.

I am currently the MOPS Coordinator for our local group and love it even if somedays I feel like I may have added too much to my plate. In this season of life things have gone so amazing. one of my sweet MOPS mommas had a boy and well his name is Warren. 

When finding out his name I have had so much joy in knowing I now have a face to my sweet boys name. This sweet guy may not share my blood or any features of mine but he carries a name that remains so precious in my soul.

When starting this blog I intended ot to be about my feelings of missing my sweet son Warren and all the things I never got to watch him grow and do. But, in that time I have had his sweet half siblings and have got to watch all those things with them. 

I still miss him so so much but I know he watches over us in ways I am sure I will never understand. each of his siblings were born with special birthmarks and when seeing those I gained peace and believe they were special kisses from him to me. 

I hope to continue this blog journey a little more often then I have. But life is busy and sometimes I just plain forget. 

A new year and a new us

2017 was a year to remember. We were one busy family with work and the redhead started school. Both kiddos are growing like crazy. Our premie hit the twenty pound mark after 13 months. Life has been pretty wonderful. This new year will mark 8 years of my sweet little man being gone. I know he is always looking over his sister and protecting them as much as he can.

But with a New Year comes a new blog plan. Plan is to have a new blog set up each week.

The new things

This year is going to the year of great blessings. 
I am teaming up with two wonderful Ladies to start selling handmade items.  But here is my struggle, I don't know wrist I want to sell. I was making bows and tutus but made more then I sold. 
I figure for me it will be trial and error.

I would love to hear about what your year is going to be?

Happy New Year

   I hope you all have had a wonderful Holiday season and a great New year. So far the new year has been pretty relaxed. I can't wait to see what God has in store for us this year.
    I will say I hope you all are safe and warm. We are currently under 3 feet of snow and its looking there will plenty more this winter. The temps have been in the single digits and very cold. The girls are growing and we are back in Oregon for good.

2016 was a tough year for us with lots of struggles. But we learned lessons and learned that with Faith in God all will be wonderful.

What a year it has been

O my , all I can say is what a year of trials and pain it has been. I guess you can say when it rains it pours. I know God knew all this would happen this year even before we did.

I have lost one to many loved ones this year. One of them being my grandfather, I know he is no longer in pain but it's crazy to believe he won't be here to watch Nellie grow up like he did with Makaylee.

On a good note the girls are doing amazing.

I just want to say Merry Christmas to all of you that take the time to read my blog. As well as A Happy New Year. Just in case I don't get back here till after the new year.

I am a NICU mom.

I can officially say I am a NICU mom.

Our second daughter was born 6 weeks early.  And I can say it's one of the scariest things I have ever been through at this point. I do however find myself wondering what each family story is as we pass each have other coming and going to see our babies.

I was sitting with my daughter just the other day and I really got to sit back and watch people come and go. As we smile at each other and wave I caught myself wondering what each story could be. As I sat in the silence and peace of holding my daughter I also found myself praying for each family as they passed by. Even without knowing their story I realized I could still pray for each of them because God knew what was going on.

I can say if it wasn't for our faith and knowing God has this all handled I am pretty sure things would be a lot more stressful and crazy.

All I ask as you finish reading this is you say a prayer for those you have passed by today.

Hello All

So after much praying and talking it over with the hubby I am here to say I am going make this whole blog this happen =)

I cant believe how discouraged I get and how bad I always wanna give up. Well not this time.

Lately things have gotten a little crazy because we are potty training =) Man o man I thought for sure it was going to be a bit easier then it has been. My daughter is totally getting the concept of peeing in the potty but man pooping is another story. I mean she would rather go to her room an poop then play in it. Yes I know its gross but she is 2 years old.

And let me tell you we are at the I am 2 going on 22 stage from the back sassing to the eye rolls. I tend to find myself going o my she is my mini me. But one thing is for sure her love for music is still there and her love for church is amazing.

As for me things are going great I still find myself pondering the thought of what my son would look like. I know he would love is baby half sister and I know she would love him. I can even after almost 6 years things still get tough and there are days I just wanna cry because I miss him dearly. I can admit I am a bit scared cause the hubby and I have talked about having another one and he really wants a boy. I know that no one will ever replace my sweet little boy but its still scary to think I could possibly have a son in the near future.

 I know my blogs are so random and unorganized and rambly but what can I say it's me. here is to more blogs and hopefully more followers