What a year it has been

O my , all I can say is what a year of trials and pain it has been. I guess you can say when it rains it pours. I know God knew all this would happen this year even before we did.

I have lost one to many loved ones this year. One of them being my grandfather, I know he is no longer in pain but it's crazy to believe he won't be here to watch Nellie grow up like he did with Makaylee.

On a good note the girls are doing amazing.

I just want to say Merry Christmas to all of you that take the time to read my blog. As well as A Happy New Year. Just in case I don't get back here till after the new year.

I am a NICU mom.

I can officially say I am a NICU mom.

Our second daughter was born 6 weeks early.  And I can say it's one of the scariest things I have ever been through at this point. I do however find myself wondering what each family story is as we pass each have other coming and going to see our babies.

I was sitting with my daughter just the other day and I really got to sit back and watch people come and go. As we smile at each other and wave I caught myself wondering what each story could be. As I sat in the silence and peace of holding my daughter I also found myself praying for each family as they passed by. Even without knowing their story I realized I could still pray for each of them because God knew what was going on.

I can say if it wasn't for our faith and knowing God has this all handled I am pretty sure things would be a lot more stressful and crazy.

All I ask as you finish reading this is you say a prayer for those you have passed by today.

Hello All

So after much praying and talking it over with the hubby I am here to say I am going make this whole blog this happen =)

I cant believe how discouraged I get and how bad I always wanna give up. Well not this time.

Lately things have gotten a little crazy because we are potty training =) Man o man I thought for sure it was going to be a bit easier then it has been. My daughter is totally getting the concept of peeing in the potty but man pooping is another story. I mean she would rather go to her room an poop then play in it. Yes I know its gross but she is 2 years old.

And let me tell you we are at the I am 2 going on 22 stage from the back sassing to the eye rolls. I tend to find myself going o my she is my mini me. But one thing is for sure her love for music is still there and her love for church is amazing.

As for me things are going great I still find myself pondering the thought of what my son would look like. I know he would love is baby half sister and I know she would love him. I can even after almost 6 years things still get tough and there are days I just wanna cry because I miss him dearly. I can admit I am a bit scared cause the hubby and I have talked about having another one and he really wants a boy. I know that no one will ever replace my sweet little boy but its still scary to think I could possibly have a son in the near future.

 I know my blogs are so random and unorganized and rambly but what can I say it's me. here is to more blogs and hopefully more followers

It has sure been CRAZY

Wow it has sure been awhile since I have written anything.

My Daughter turned 2 years old in September and my o my has the toddler attitude kicked in. She is so independent and strong willed. We have started potty training and lets just say it's not as easy as i thought it would be.

This last year has been a Whirlwind of craziness. We didn't end up moving in June had to wait on that one till December. I broke my ankle in June and spent my whole summer  in a cast and then in a boot. Had to have surgery in September for that and then My daughter had to have surgery in November for her trigger thumb.

She is in a toddler bed and that is a lot tougher than I ever thought it would be. not sure as to what is going on but she refuses to sleep in her bed at night and we are still working on trying to find that one thing that will make it happen. It seems to be that we find something and it only works once in awhile or not at all.

I will say this after have this sweet little redhead I have learned that things are never normal and life is truly an amazing adventure.

I will be trying my hardest to post a lot more this year and hope you all have a blessed and wonderful day =)